I guess I could call myself that creature. I yearn for the new, for things that make me feel uncomfortable in other environments... other than my known habitat. I love where I live, the beauty of the mountains, the easy temperament of the people and the pretty mild weather. But, somehow, I don't quite feel at home. I am a born Canadian, yet have this desire to always try living in other environments other than my own. I have always desired to live in Africa for a time, I have lived in the US for a year and a half, and my newest venture draws me to the US again.
This blog is an honest write up of where I am, what God has been teaching me and what comes next in the pattern of life.
December would have been a very difficult month for me. I had no vision, no ideas of where I was going. It's as though each day dragged. I was at a loss for what to do next and where God was calling me to go.
The time between Christmas and New Years, I was inspired. An idea was brought to me, and so I looked up information and did some research. I became interested in going to a Ministry School in Northern California known as "Bethel Supernatural School of Ministry." This has been the greatest journey of faith I have had with God so far and it has also been one of the most confirming times.
God had been putting circumstances and asets into my hands to this ministry about 7/8 years ago. I just didn't know it. God has a good sense of humour. I had picked up a book by Bill Johnson (Pastor of the church). I was intrigued by the title of the book, "When Heaven Invades Earth." This title still intrigues me, and so does the content in the book. It's real and beautiful. I encourage anyone reading this to read that book. Three years or so later (February 19th, 2010), I would find myself surrounded by a gang of young adults and adults in a living room in Vancouver, BC, speaking words of prophesy over my life. A gift God had blessed me with a year after I came out of a church split and an agonizing time of trying to find my identity. Three and a half years later, I would find myself at a worship tour held in Vancouver in the summer of 2013 by Bethel worship, invited by the same person. In that time of worship, I felt every bind that was distracting me from true praise and worship to God released. I felt freedom. I felt His supernatural freedom and His truth. In the course of those three years, I would see some of those prophesy's fulfilled. Things that I could not have even explained to happen.
Four months later, I would be inspired to go to this ministry. Honestly, even in August, I had no thought and no desire of going to Bethel. God would soon change that. Four years later to the day, since the prophetic ministry in February 19, 2010, I would have my interview and be accepted into the program, February 19, 2014.
Now, what I have to credit is how amazing God works things together. Before the church split had happened, I had picked up "When Heaven Invades Earth," by Bill Johnson, read it, and I can say I really didn't understand it. Seven to eight years later, I read it and almost everything I read in there I had been studying and meditating on for the last three and a half years through Celebration Ministries International, from Pastor's Tom and Bonnie Deuschle in Zimbabwe. God has been preparing my heart to receive more.
I am now on a journey of trust in His promises and works that He has started. I am not fully sure how I will get there, but I am convinced He has already fulfilled and completed what He has started. I have received opposition, but I know my God still rules over the circumstance. Sure, there are times I doubt and I think how is this possible? Yet, I am brought back to how God supplies and how His Kingdom operates in such a supernatural way. We may not see it, but I sure believe it. He has asked me to be obedient to His word. "Now faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen." God is moved by faith. He is moved by your or my trust in Him. That we would seek His face and His presence over the dwelling of the circumstance that faces us in opposition.
I am ecstatic about the things to come, and in the meantime I am learning to rest in Him through the trust that I place in His hands.That my eyes would only see His face. Last night, I was blown away by a gift that was given to me for the start of my journey. My faith was encouraged.
